Demolition

My life the past two weeks has been a bit of a roller coaster ride. But well that seems a bit contrived and way to obvious - laid off, almost get a new job, lost the new job, figuring out the next chapter- the ups and downs make the analogy just a bit too obvious.  So how about this one. The last two weeks and probably more like last six months have been the demolition phase of a total remodel on the house I call life.

When I demolished my first house in 2003, I had no clue what the final product would look like.  The boys dad was the visionary, I just went along for the ride. Of course there was stuff that led to the demolition phase before it even began.  In that house in particular it was neglect.  For about 50 years, the house had been in varying states of disrepair as the older couple that lived there became just the widow and the widow eventually left this world as well.  In her waning years the house had been the least of her worries and things that a younger family would want fixed hadn't been. Neglect can lead to some pretty scary stuff and demolition is the only way to get it out. People in this type of remodel are often scared by demolition because it might reveal more problem than they bargained for and the outcome is never quite sure until the final clean up.

Other remodel jobs are quite the opposite.  They are driven by the watchful eye of a loving caretaker who is taking care and pride to enrich the treasure of their home.  They want to demolish and relish the destruction knowing it is bringing a greater version of the original.

Either way there is need of demolition - and something is driving the change. I am sure you can see where I am going at this point.  My life is in demolition mode. I have been here before and I will come back again in the future. It is a hard time but a good time.  It is full of hope and optimism. My last demolition was brought on by a hurricane this one by a lay-off.  Both were God ordained and directed. One led me out of personal bondage and one is leading me out of professional bondage.

I'm excited about this round of demolition and look forward to wiping out the debris of what was to begin to install what is to be. I would love to say I am the planner who picked this for herself and has a good idea of what the final product looks like but alas I am not. I've been neglecting things and they were starting to fall apart.  But my foundation is good.  I am strong. I was designed by a master architect and what is coming will be His new design. I am bit scared of what we might unearth as we swing the sledgehammer and take down a few walls- but well I am game.  It is time for change and well frankly "I was born for such a time as this" (see Esther 4:14)