Authenticity - showing up with flaws

I have flaws. I know those of you who know me personally will probably need to call paramedics now for resuscitation. But I wanted it out there for the whole word to see....I HAVE FLAWS and get this I have lots of them. There is not enough blog space in the world to catalog all the character, physical, mental and emotional flaws in my life. But the ones that bother me the most...spiritual flaws. Did you know I am judgmental? Now I have done it...tomorrow my friends, family and staff will all look at me differently. "I wonder if she is judging me right now" is what they will be thinking. And sadly the answer might be yes. I don't forgive all the time either. Sometimes I hold a grudge. I even get bitter, and I know nobody will believe this one but every once in a while I even swear (a lot). Yes indeed I am flawed. Head to toe I am full of stuff I wish I wasn't. Sometimes I wonder if that disqualifies me. Does my own lack of perfection take me out of the running for God's love? How can He use me when I am such a judgmental, unforgiving, cussing mess? What could the world possibly gain by knowing me? Surely they couldn't see Him in my dim and dull mirror. Certainly what they would see would not bring them closer to the flame. So what's the point of trying. Right? I mean clearly, I should become the prodigal son and take my flaws on the party circuit. We could live it up out there with the world...eat, drink, be merry! And when I wake up I would be perfect - no still flawed. So maybe I should just become a Pharisee - you know sit in my holy robes at the entrance of the temple and pretend I am flawless. That would make them go away and then I could serve Him. Then my reflection of His glory would really shine. No every morning I would just have to scrub harder to keep the flaws from showing through my threadbare out cover. Maybe I could hide in a tree - no someone already did that and he was called out too. I guess I just get to show up everyday, flaws and all and do what I can to share the hope of the resurrection. To tell someone today about the saving power of Christ. I guess I just get to show up everyday and live the best example I can of unconditional love. To be a moment of clarity to someone in crisis. I guess I just get to show up everyday, flaws and all and be authentic. I get to be real. Which means you don't have to love me, you don't have to like me, I don't even have to love me, I just have to be who I am today and tomorrow my flaws and I will be here again. We will work to make your life richer, to share with more people that there is hope. My flawed life full of junk will be open for review if it means someone learns that Jesus is who He said He was, He did what the bible says He did, and He wants to be in relationship with each of us. I will live authentically if by that I can show that there is hope for the hopeless and that God came for sinners...after all He loves me. So if your mirror is cracked and the flaws are showing, show up anyway...after all God is sovereign and supreme and who knows what He might make out a scrap heap of flaws!